I wonder how it feels to be alive (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to not wanna die (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to be full inside (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to not wanna cry, all of the time, all of the time, oh I wish my happiness wasn't rooted in direct deposits I wish my happiness wasn't rooted in pornography watching I wish my happiness wasn't rooted in running from problems I'm running, running from my problems I sleep it away, wake up at 12 o'clock noon everyday Tears on the backwood, I can't' function 'less a blunt in my face Don't wanna play with the devil Digging my grave, take the shovel All of my issues reside in my mental I wonder how it feels to be alive (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to not wanna die (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to be full inside (I wonder) I wonder how it feels to not wanna cry, all of the time, all of the time I'm running, I'm running, I'm running, running from my problems I'm running, I'm running, I'm running, running from my problems I'm running, I'm running, I'm running, running from my problems I'm running, running from my problems

People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat I pray that God forgive me for the shit I did And forgive me for the sins that I've yet to commit Cause I ain’t perfect, I'm just human nigga, just like you I know some niggas who ain't make it to see 22 And I know some niggas that’s in that cell who don’t know what to do I told em keep they head up high, they spirit bulletproof But first it start within yo mind if you want better views These niggas can try to steal yo joy, but you control yo mood Pray my brothers don’t make the news My pain not entertainment, could less bout being famous Grind as hard as I do cause I wanna see better payments I was told solely go to the places you celebrated And never invite yoself into places you tolerated People be choosing favorites, people be choosing sides People claim that they real, but it’s still a side that they hide And niggas be selling dreams, bullshit I never buy Niggas a tell a lie, and look you dead in the eye People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat People a do you so wrong, know why Know I experienced those, so I Stay to myself ion een gotta go out Rather stay true to myself than hear those lies Good energy over all or it’s no vibes Cut them boys off, they gon say they don’t know why I don’t got time for no fake shit, playing these games, I don’t got the patience You give an inch and a mile they gone take it You show em love and it feel like they hate ya You give em chance after the chance but the moment you don’t They forget about all of the times that you did Loyal when wasn’t a dolla to give Respect over checks, that’s the model I live by And most of em don’t they just to get by, by playing the fence Kept it 100 wit all of my people Made some mistakes but I learned from em all now Never feel like that you need em, I ain’t gotta question myself if we fall out Shit a just change you but keep showing love It is what it is and it was what it was Cold world but now I just live it in snug People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat People say they love me when I know they really don’t Say that they’ll be here for me when I know that they won’t Left me on my own, left me in the cold Left me in the world all alone with no coat

You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain I topped the last shit that I did because they doubted me And they was shocked I did I know these hoes ain't really proud of me I know these bitches envy me, I know why but I don't They don't see the shit that come with my life that they said they want My nigga this ain't what you want, I play the cards that I was dealt My first song was real shit, and now I'm here cause it was felt I ain't ever ask for help so they can't ever take what's mine And I refuse to let a nigga knock me off my fucking grind, it's my time man You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain I ducked off and took some time for me and niggas got offended Said they'd ride but over time saw they ain't have my best interest They heart wasn't really in it, but it's fine, no hard feelings Understand that you can't feast with everybody when you winning They all can't go where you going, I even dismissed some family And niggas thought shit was sweet cause I rap but bitch I ain't candy I really can do em nasty, but I'm rowing Rollin out them muddy waters, die a martyr Man I thought somebody taught ya uh You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain I took the Groveside worldwide, facts If it ain't love don't give that back Straight out the mud had to get it in This trauma and pain ain't just synonyms And you had silver spoon, I prayed for diligence You watched me starve, can't forget that shit I got the heart of my momma yea That's probably why I keep forgiving em Ain't no more nice guy or freebies Shawty a hustler, working at XTC, then go to DG's I need a bitch that ain't too good for CiCi's Had to switch gears like a muhfuckin' 6 speed I shed them tears for my brothers not with me RIP FXXXXY, my Momma, and Keita How y'all ain't here It's still hard to believe it All of them losses I just had to eat em Damn You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain You don't know my story nigga you don't know my pain You don't know my struggle nigga you just know my name People saying that I changed, had to elevate Really came from nothing, I been thugging thru the rain

Losing my religion, losing my religion Losing my religion, losing my religion Yeah, yeah I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it They tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it Tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it I'm wasting my money on this therapy, is what they keep telling me Music is my remedy, you hearing me, not feeling me You think cause my energy relate to you, that you truly know or understand just what I'm going thru But you never been inside my shoes, no You was never there when it was dark and I was blue, no You ain’t never care when I was shaking in my boots, no I was owned by fear and I ain’t know just want to do or who to call When I was down and lost it all, y’all ain't help me get it back I was at the fucking bottom all y'all fucking did was laugh, y'all fucking did was laugh I’ll always remember that yea yea I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it Shit got real, where you was when I was down bad Stressed out, never gave up faith though shit went left fast Stick to the plan, no audible Nigga gotta do what he gotta do Take care the kids, had to post up on that avenue Serving it, swerving, emerging in shit ain’t even thought I’ll be in Hard but it’s life, gotta deal w the dark to receive yo blessings Take what you got, pull a reverse, transform on these opps Shattered the chains no more locks out the lane of the lost I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it Been driving on faith for a while now Living in the wild for a while now Stress make a nigga want to break down, been down but I never will stay down Got God on my phone on speed dial, talk to Him when I need to Define your relationship with God on your own that’s the best way to be true Stop telling me how to connect with above, y’all niggas so see through Follow yo feelings and listen to spirit, that’s what’ll free you I know this to be true No matter the way that you feeling about it, life gon teach you If you lucky, it reach you So I water my soul like a seed, growing the God in me Giving the best that I can to my people before I need to leave Impact has no end, what we feel is what we see So I focus on my growth and I do it so faithfully I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it They tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it Tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it I be stressed and be depressed and they tell me to pray about it Tell me to suck it up and not to be no whimp about it, bitch about it They tell me to go to church about it, they say it’s all in my head and I need to snap up out it

You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to Wake up everyday and thank God that I got see another 24 Wake up everyday and thank God that he cut some people off and let em go Lost some people that’s 6 feet, but then I lost some people that still breathe Lost some people that just walked out, but then God took some people from me It’s gone take some getting use to, it’s gone take a readjustment Lord knows that I been going thru it but know better days are still coming Feel like I'm being redundant, when I cry other things I can’t change I know that you passed and away, but i’ll make sure they remember yo name Tell someone you love em while they still here And hold em close to you while you can and they still near I never thought you wouldn’t make it to another year I never thought that I’d be drowning here inside my tears I been feeling empty inside I’m down but I don’t really have the strength to still cry I didn’t reach out when I had the chance because of pride But know you took a piece of me with you when you had died, when you had died You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to I hit the weed and my thoughts become so paralyzed I sit back and I analyze, on fantasies in paradise Life’s a gamble without a pair of dice I stay away from the parasites, cause they draining my soul Over 400 years of fighting goddamnit and this world is still so cold That’s the worst feeling, being so cursed and so gifted these problems will never be fixed Every day I wake up chasing something but I don’t know what it is See I was so lost, I was so mafuckin lost, wish I could live in a dream I close my eyes and create a new world but in reality it's not what it seems I’m losing faith, I put a smile on like I’m great, the pain is deeper within I’m losing friends, oh God please wash all my sins and keep me from losing my kin I’m bringing water to the burning bridges just to find out in the bucket it is gin And liquor and fire don’t mix, all this anxiety and the desired to quit Heavenly father please take the wheel Driveby, man somebody getting killed All these youngins steady popping these pills, that shit won’t erase the pain that you feel See I keep you in my prayers every time, I pray this life ain’t designed to save And son if I die today, I’m praying to God and I’m hoping you find your way You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to You don’t hit my line anymore You, use to at least call me when you was feeling bored But, now my phone don’t ring as often as it used to And I admit this gone take awhile to get use to